Steadiness & readiness
Lately, we eat macaroni and cheese for supper about once a week. On my days off, sometimes I grocery shop or go for a run, but I also sleep a lot and spend a lot of time on the couch. Pajamas and scrubs make up a lot of the laundry. We've got our nine o'clock supper routine. Life right now feels a little odd, but at the same time, it doesn't feel unsettled, and we're not anticipating any big life changes soon. It is in this time without transition that I want to steady and ready myself for whatever God has in store next. I don't want to wait until I'm knocked off my feet to consider my footing.
I think back to a year ago, shortly after we moved to Austin. We had to trust Jesus because our life visibly seemed uncertain and unknown. But now, will I trust Him in a season where the waters at my feet are still—a season when it feels easy to not need God? However subtle it may be, movement is happening. The fact that I can't always discern the current's direction demands a more precious reliance on the only One who can.
About a week ago, our church just released a worship album—you should have a listen, it's so good. In particular, the title track This Glorious Grace, resonated with me in a different way this week as I thinking about the current of our life right now. These are lyrics from the bridge:
God, your grace like rising seas has swallowed death and sin in me Out of darkness, raised to life My soul you woke, I’m raised to life
Maybe the current around me is still right now. But His grace is active and rising and overwhelming, in the most miraculous way. I can face each day in this life season, and whatever comes next with that assurance. More than any other calm season I've previously experienced, this time, I'm excited to pursue His word. I'm praying for further joy through His words as He guides my steps through unknown waters. I'm praying that if I'm not knocked over by my circumstances, that I will be knocked over by the power of His grace. Regardless of the status of the current at me feet, I desire for the truth of His promises to pull me close to Him, the God who makes (and keeps!) promises like this one from Psalm 18:30:
This God—His way is perfect, the word of the Lord proves true; he is a shield for all those who take refuge in Him.
Whether the current around you is still or otherwise, my prayer is that you might get acquainted with a footing that will not fail: the power and trustworthiness of Jesus' grace.